As a new mom, I’m always reading things about how I’m supposed to make time for myself. Take a few hours to go out! Read a book! Get my hair done! Take a walk! See a movie! And while I’m sure there are those for whom that is remotely possible, I’m not one of them. Our circumstances simply won’t allow for it, unfortunately, for various reasons. (Don’t get me wrong – I adore my daughter. But it’s true – I am rarely more than 10 feet away from her and I’m pretty sure the only time I’ve been further was when she was a few days old and I took a walk around the block.) She is my favorite teeny little super girl, but until recently would not tolerate being put down. For any length of time. (This is where I rave about my wraps and carriers…) Now, at the ripe old age of three months, she will lie contentedly in her crib or on her play mat and entertain herself for varying lengths of time, depending on how hungry and/or well-rested she is.
So now we have a little routine – we wake up at an ungodly hour in the morning. I grumble a bit. We get up and I change her diaper. She, of course, is all smiles. Then I put her in her crib and possibly toss in a load of laundry, maybe eat some cereal. But always, while she babbles to herself, smiles at the wall and throws her stuffed fish around, I take the time to write in a little journal. I don’t say anything eloquent and it’s little more than a recounting of the previous day’s activities. It’s rarely more than one small page, sometimes two if it was an especially eventful day. But as a stay-at-home/work-from-home new mama who’s used to being a whole lot more “productive” with my days, it is a lifesaver. I started doing it when I ceased being able to tell one day from another and felt like I wasn’t “doing” anything useful on a daily basis. And oh, how useful it is to raise this baby of mine! But it’s monotonous, repetitive work. Usually thankless and sometimes frustrating, with moments of pure wonder and magic thrown in for good measure. It helps me to write down that these are the things I did today. Whether those things involve cooking a meal, canning some jam, doing loads of diaper laundry, working or just keeping everything together for one more day, they are worth noting. They are worthy.